I Am a Bird Now by Antony and the Johnsons took me a few minutes before I finally started to get it. Or did I? First, let me give some background. Antony and the Johnsons is a band formed by Antony Hegarty. Hegarty was born in England but grew up in San Francisco. His earliest musical influences were in British synth pop, specifically that of Marc Almond and Boy George. His singing style was also influenced by R&B artists such as Otis Redding and Donny Hathaway.
Hegarty is involved in numerous musical and artistic endeavors. In addition to being a songwriter, he also is a playwright, director and visual artist who has presented in those roles all over the world. His music often reveals things about himself. I Am a Bird Now is a prime example.
#66 – Antony and the Johnsons, I Am a Bird Now (Metascore = 88)
As I mentioned earlier, I needed a few songs into the album before I finally started to understand it. Most of the music is Hegarty on piano backed by various stringed instruments and drums. His vocal style sounded familiar to me, and I realized I had heard it previously with the band Hercules and Love Affair (a separate band that he has contributed lyrics and vocals to). I wasn’t immediately interested in how he was singing, but slowly it grew on me. The first song, “Hope There’s Someone” reflects his fear of death and his hope of having someone to be with in that fateful hour. His plaintive voice really makes the delivery of the song very strong. “My Lady Story” is another beautiful song lyrically; to me, this represents someone that is struggling with the aftermath of having had breast cancer and been treated for it. The character struggles with the loss of beauty.
“For Today I am a Boy” is where I was completely thrown with the lyrics. So I looked them up and then read more about Hegarty. Hegarty considers himself transgender and has mentioned in interviews how he has struggled internally with being male when much about him feels female. He brings these emotions to the heart of “For Today”. Much of the rest of the album also hints at these struggles. “Man Is the Baby” lyrically sounds like he is begging his parents to accept him for who he is.